Thursday 8 September 2011

=(

i wanted to write so so much today. but unfortunately, a news came by. my granddad (nana) died.

mom and dads left. leaving me the head of the house for a few days.

we (siblings) dint go cause they have school, and i had to be here to look up for them.

he (nana abu) wasnt well for a long time. he had lost his memory, and he was bed-ridden. we met him like a month back, when he could still open his eyes and smile. we all knew, that, his times near, but u never want the  one you love with all your heart, to leave you, anyhow.

i am so down, yet helpless. everybody tells me i have to be strong, cause i have two younger siblings to look after. i consoled my mom, but i have no words to console any other family member. i have no tears left too. i am numb. emotionless now.

he was such an inspiring personality. graceful and pious. when i look back, i know he might be the only person who loved me for ME. i will miss him so bad.

i wish i had some one to cry on his/her shoulders. or someone i could talk to, who could speak the right words and make me feel safe. i wish i had someone just to tell me its not such a big loss.

i feel so insecure. =(

i feel as if theres nothing to be done. no words to be said. no deeds to be done. for every ones to leave some day.

i hope hes ranked high in the heaven. and all his sins be forgiven by Allah. AMEN.

13 comments:

  1. Aw sorry to hear that mahnoor =(
    May ALLAH bless his soul with higher place in Jannah and give you and your family the courage to bear this loss. Ameen.
    xx *Hugs*

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  2. I am so sorry to hear about this. :( It is never easy to lose somebody. In the past year, my family has experienced four significant deaths, and they never get easier. My thoughts are with you and your family!

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  3. I am so sorry to know the sad demise of your beloved NANA ABU--
    "INNA LILLAHE WA INNA ELAIHAY RAJAEOON"
    We are from Allah and towards Him we have to return.
    May Allah Subhanahu wa taalaa bless your grandpa with the highest place in Jannatul firdaus.
    May Allah forgive his sins and make his QABAR enlightened with Noor-- Amen
    We have to remain ready-- because even next second our death orders can be issued by the Almighty Allah.
    So Allah Ki rassee ko mazbooti sey pakar lo.
    Stay away from sataanic ideas.
    During the worldly jouney try to properly understand Allah's message and do act accordingly --but do not delay pl.

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  4. Rest in Peace...may his soul rest in piece and may ALLAH give him a place in the heaven... yes it is very difficult to part with our near and dear ones...but thats how life is...this day is coming upon us... all of us... your siblings are lucky to have someone like you to look after them in this hard time...hope you will be fine soon...

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  5. May he rest in peace ....he's probably off to a much better place.

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  6. awww sorry to hear about ur grandad!
    May his soul rest in peace (ameen)

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  7. May his soul Rest In peace :)Ameen

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  8. I felt so bad to hear that. Same happened with me some years back that i lost my grand parent and believe me it was disastrous. I couldn't happen to shed a tear, this shocked i was. It was like my heart went snapping all along like rubber bands.


    God Bless him, cry all your heart out and that will be okay.

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  9. I felt so bad to hear that. Same happened with me some years back that i lost my grand parent and believe me it was disastrous. I couldn't happen to shed a tear, this shocked i was. It was like my heart went snapping all along like rubber bands.


    God Bless him, cry all your heart out and that will be okay.

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  10. Oh God!

    "Inna Lillahi wa Inna Elaihay Rajeoon"

    (We are all from God and to Him do we return)

    May Allah bless you and your family with peace and courage. May your Nana be blessed.
    Ameen.

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  11. I have been away since long, missed reading many wonderful posts at your fantastic blog. I'll try to read and comment on all the post I missed. ^_^

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  12. @KN. i cried. im ok now.

    @HAMZA. ameen.

    and sure thing. this means so much to me=)

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